Quarter Life Crash

Quarter Life Crash
Words and Music: Briggs Baritugo

Drag it out the window
Smash it down to pieces
Don't wait dont wait
Until the night fades to grey

How long? How long?
How long? How long?
Until you put me out of my misery?

Haul it out of the cracks
Draw it out of my heart
Shatter shatter the remains of
Ghosts in my past

How long? How long?
How long? How long?
Until you put me out of my misery?

Its always better when the lights are out and
Imagine my eyes burning through the glass
Its always better when the lights are out
Either way you'd turn


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Swinging Both Ways

Swinging Both Ways
Words & Music: Briggs

I've never felt this way before
I'm never lonely I'm never alone
Looks may kill and marr the surface
But you know you could never go wrong

When you're swinging both ways..

Make out Break out Stake your claim
Diversify Intensify
Play my game

Lost in my desire for you
My soul-moving whore
I'm high on indecision
My sweet addiction
Gotta make it right
Gonna make it right
But you're too inviting
Strips me Down writes me down to my very core

When I'm swinging both ways...

Make out Break out Stake your claim
Diversify Intensify
Play my game


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Sundowning

Sundowning
Words: Briggs
Music: Briggs, Lawrence, Andrew, Gigo

Memories of Pain inflicted on these walls
A time in our lives
When your Happiness meant the Death of it all
A time in our lives
When low raging pain would rip away my soul
Surprised myself at how quickly Ive become Used to it all.

Chorus:
Time is never a friend my friend
Here she comes...
Here she comes...
At Sundown

Night is Happening
Feel the moment coming in
When all the nightmares come together
When the Sun goes Down
People slip and slid through
The Darkness that surrounds me
Watch as it glides through and move up to the surface of your Mind.

Chrous:
Time is never a friend my friend
Here she comes...
Here she comes...
At Sundown


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Paranoia 21

PARANOIA 21
Words: Briggs Baritugo
Music: Brew and Briggs Baritugo

My loss begins to get the best of me
The deeper I see the longer I seek
Tomorrow's promise is yesterday's sorrow
I will not even begin to understand
The darkness I have borrowed

The devil in me brings up
Her bittersweet revenge
Only only only only
To bring me down again
To bring me down again
To bring me down again

Children's laughter envelops me
Ain't it funny how memories of what could never be
Fills me up and grips the worst of
Fills me up and grips the worst of
Fills me up and grips the worst of me

I'm running out of doors to open
I'm running out of ways to change
Drift along with parting words
And everything I'd ever want
And everything I'd ever do
Would come from the madness of my youth


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Pussywhipped

Pussywhipped
Words and Music: Briggs Baritugo

I. I feel this time my luck will change
because this time my heart is armed with rage.
Because the demons that plague me now
are screaming screaming,
"Emotional Annihilation!!"

Ooh lover won't you talk to me?

Chorus
My my mind's in a million different places
and I'm left wondering when my turn's gonna be.
My world is never the same never the same
Oh lover won't you talk to me?

II. Thoughts of you linger on and on and on
How could you be alive when i buried you years ago?
I remember paranoid conversations
and my heart screaming "Annihilation!!"

Ooh lover won't you talk to me?

Chorus
My my mind's in a million different places
and I'm left wondering when my turn's gonna be.
My world is never the same never the same.
My life is never the same
Oh lover won't you talk to me?


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Nothing

Nothing
Words and Music: Briggs Baritugo

I'll take this confusion

Between us

And hold it against my beating heart.

I'll take these broken wings

And free fall through the empty sky.

There is no need to carry the weight or die for every loss.

Chorus:

Because Nothing...

Because Nothing...

Because Nothing in this world is

Truly truly Mine.

Go on dying in the past

So I may remain in the "Now".

"Nothingness" is vibrant with possibilities.

No one can take away

That which is truly yours.

There's no need to slip through the cracks or bleed for every loss.

Chorus:
Because Nothing...
Because Nothing...
Because Nothing in this world is Mine.

Because Nothing in this world is Yours.

Because Nothing in this world is Ours.

Because Nothing in this world is truly Mine.

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Khattam-shud

KHATTAM-SHUD (It is finished)
Words and Music: Briggs

You sharpen my anger
To its murderous edge
I’m driven to desperation
Man you got me on my knees
There’s a kind of burning
Baby deep inside
There’s a thousand colored stories
Surrounding your lies

Safe from the world
Bring me back home
Safe from the world
Faith take me home

So this is where the twilight ends
Find solace in the silence
Turn my head away from the screaming
Man she sparkles when I’m high
There's a kind of burning
Don't you feel it deep inside?
I bear the sadness of the truth
That it was all just a lie

Safe from the world
Bring me back home
Safe from the world
Faith take me home

She dances as the heads roll by…
Sing praises at the scene of the crime…
She dances as the heads roll by…
Sing praises at the scene of the crime…


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3 Day Sickness

3 DAY SICKNESS
Words: Briggs Baritugo
Music: Brew and Briggs Baritugo

No matter how many times
You try and make things right
You're living a fantasy
Yeah brother just let things be
And you say everything is more than it seems
And I say, you are not
What you're cut up to be
People change, is that what it means when you say
We're hitting another dead end?

Time has passed me by
Days turn into nights
This is how it is
The third day of my being sick

Moving in little circles
Time and again
We make ammends
Wishing you were here
Come and take me away

Time has passed me by
Days turn into nights
This is how it is
The third day of my being sick


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Psychobitch

PSYCHOBITCH
Words and Music: Briggs

I gotta million reasons to have you killed
Would you deny me the thrill
To go for the kill
Agonizing over
Agonized over
Black and white
Days and nights
Ooh you thought I'd give up the fight
Give up the fight

Schizophrenic Psychoholic
You go on singin' your tune
Singin' your tune

And even if you've got money
To buy your friends
And the world thinks I am the losing end
Well I beleive in karma man
Oh you've got it comin' man
'Coz you get what you make
Oh you get what you make

Schizophrenic Psychoholic
You go on singin' your
Vagrant lies
Your silly silly smiles
The world awaits your passing
Pull the trigger if you can
Pull the trigger if you can
Trade in your hour for a life filled with lies
Psychobitch on the loose
I think I'm gonna start singing
The blues...

I gotta million reasons to...
Blow you away,
Cut you into Pieces
I gotta millions reasons to go for the kill


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Loaded

LOADED
Words: Briggs
Music: Ryan Villamayor and Briggs

This would be the day
I spread my wings and fly away
It's a new day it's a new dawn
It's a new life for me
Faith in my strength that it would
Carry me through
My struggle to be free

But I...
I got no courage
To let you Down
But I don't know what it is that I want
I got no courage to shut you out
But I don't know what it is that I need
So slowly drag me down
Let my feet caress the ground

Well I'm doin' it doin' it right
On borrowed time
Watch myself, feel myself Unfold
Curve after curve after curve
Find my way through
My meaning misconstrued

But I...
I got no courage
To let you Down
But I don't know what it is that I want
I got no courage to shut you out
But I don't know what it is that I need
So slowly drag me down
Let my feet caress the ground


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Old Familiar Sting...

OLD FAMILIAR STING
Words and Music: Briggs

Turn away then make me stay
Hold that moment
A little little longer
Piece by piece you're a tease
Pretend I am another

Fade into the night
Fake that distant cry

That old familiar sting
Cuts right through
Through my skin
That old familiar sting

Make believe it's your first time
Kill them shadows baby
Set them spaces free
Dissolved in solid tones
You spread me
Spread me in a haze

Fade into the night
Fake that distant cry

That old familiar sting
Cuts right through
Through my skin
That old familiar sting


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Carry On

CARRY ON
Words and Music: Briggs

Well I'm reading between the lines
And I'm passing through a needle's eye
Would you carry me through the fire?
And if I should put my faith
On a love that won't prevail

And we break and falter...

Carry on
Carry on
Would you carry on?


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Failing Days

FAILING DAYS
Words: Jon Juliano
Music: Briggs Baritugo

Would you say you're sorry
Or would you waste my time
Talkin' bout the silly games we play
Suppose I said I couldn't work things out
Would you still stay?

Oh Maybe we could try to find
Some resolution to our Failing Days
And if we could go back to
Where it all began
Would we find our way

Will things ever get better
Or would it stay the same
Reflections of the past we used to share
Suppose I said I couldn't work things out
Would you still stay?

Oh Maybe we could try to find
Some resolution to our Failing Days
And if we could go back to where it all began
Would we lose our way


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Burned

BURNED
Words: Briggs
Music: Brew and Briggs

We all fall down sometimes...

The heart shuts down when It has too much to bear.
My soul is somewhere
Finding open doors
Deep beneath the ground - I stumble
(We all fall down sometimes...)

Chorus:
Shall I carry the cross
Everytime you change your mind?

I stand here alone now -In painful , naked glory
What breaks me
Until this moment
Is the tragedy of a life
Where every day's exactly like the others

Chorus:
Shall I carry the cross
Everytime you change your mind?

When the last absolutes are torn to pieces...
Shall I carry the cross
Everytime you change your mind?

We all fall down sometimes...


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Unfuck

Unfuck
Words and Music: Briggs

I'm gonna take it slow do it and do it again
I'm gonna take it slow do it and do it again...

I'm gonna take it slow do it and do it again
I'm talking 'bout getting over
Memories written down in stone
Pain without space and time Between...

Because...
Time Time Time 3x
Is on my side

Well now the curtains are drawn
And I disregard my senses
Everything runs into everything else
Comfort in the thought that nothing is
Exactly how I'd want it to be

But...
Time Time Time 3x
Is on my side

In your struggle to be Real
In your struggle to be Centered
In your struggle to be You
Have you left a place for me?

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Flesh and Bone

Flesh and Bone
Words and Music: Briggs
Alone in a crowd
Without happiness it seems
Without the Madness
Without the Curiosity

Moving along merely passing through
Moving along and not meaning to
Living this way
Rather than that
Living this way
Rather than that

Alone in a crowd
I speak without waiting for an answer
Always alone
Always alone
I am Flesh and Bone
Blind as a new born child

Sublime courtesy
Will you bury me
It is as it should be

Moving along merely passing through
Moving along and not meaning to
Living this way
Rather than that
Living this way
Rather than that


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